At the weekend the very first spring colour appeared in our garden. Yesterday my husband took a picture for me and today, in chilly but promising sunshine the crocus has opened to say hello. Thus so shall I!
I have been searching for the things that make me happy and fulfilled, for the life I want to live, and for a way to make it a vocation (hopefully). This Christmas gone I finally felt I had found my answers:
- My family: loving them, nurturing them, learning from them, being with them.
- Domesticity: cooking, baking, sewing, making, and all the things that make this house feel like a home and these days feel like a life. Being a homemaker is not a default, a leftover or a bottom rung. It is the way you wrap your family in your arms every day, and let them fly away when they need to.
- Nature: the birds, animals, flora and fauna, and all the weather and seasons that frame them. The first daffodil of spring brings enough joy to almost knock me over. I hope I never get cynical or jaded enough to stop noticing it.
This is the year that I will:
- learn to sew and buy a sewing machine
- keep cooking and bake more
- make a quilt bedspread for the little one's bed
- spend more time outside in nature, and bring it inside with me
- make all my cards myself
- ditto for presents, as much as possible
- learn to decorate fairy cakes
- embrace the domestic life, for nothing else fulfils me more
- nurture my two - maybe three (one month to go til baby #3 lands) - lovely boys
- try not to drown in the early weeks of new motherhood, but accept I probably will!
- try to have a bit of a babymoon
- live with the seasons, and revel in the year's celebrations of them
- find more time for my boys
- ... and more time for me
- write, write, write
- finally read a book again!
- make cushions for the house
- always have a vase of flowers or foliage in the house, ideally found not bought
- appreciate the simple joys in life
- and with all this, be happy.